Carpe diem.

Wow, it has been way too long!

Life has been good. No, strike that. Life has been, in a word, stellar. I feel like I've recently ascended in happiness like a phoenix, flying above all the stress and sadness that used to bring me down. It sounds sappy and dramatic but, if you've seen me in the last few weeks, you'll know from my face how true it is.

It's amazing how easy it is to let someone or something bring you down for so long. You sit back and let them question your motives, your self worth, your drive... and smile and nod while they're doing it! Your love for that person or that situation/job seeps somehow into your ability to feel complete, feel whole and, once you're on the other side of it, you see just how much importance you put on someone or something that didn't deserve it.

I am so happy now and, the best part is, I feel like I earned it. Like I deserve it. I refuse to base my self worth on any external forces and have become so cheesy silly happy that I can't imagine living any other way.

If you haven't tried it, I suggest you do. As I have recently been reminded, life is too short to be unhappy or not live your most genuine life RIGHT NOW.

Carpe diem, bitches. It might be the last one you have.

"All the poems you read
And what you really sought
Was the one poem.

And when you found it
... Weren’t you lifted up?
Didn’t you become lighter?

Transparent even, so that
someone looking at you
Could see the world,
Could see the world inside you?"

— Gregory Orr