Long time no write! I've been adjusting to the major changes that have occurred in my life over the past few weeks and writing was, for once, the last thing on my mind.
But I'm here now, ready to sing like a songbird in the morning.
I'd like to start by addressing my critics. You may not understand me, you may not like me, but you have no place to judge me. Unless you've walked in my shoes (or skated in my roller skates), you don't know my life. You don't know how I feel, what I've been through and why I do (or have done) what I do. And, conversely, I don't know your life. Please don't think that it's ok to judge me and my choices. And please don't mistake me for the type of person that lets things like that slip. If you have something to say to me and, believe me, I know you do... say it to my face.
A hem.
That said.
I am so happy right now. I am almost unbearably happy, like my happiness might slip out of my pores and puddle on the floor around me. I never have ever thought I could have what I have right now - the movie fairy tale, the love from the books I've read since I was a kid. The person that would dance with me in the kitchen, hold my hand even when no one is looking. I feel constantly lucky to know her and to have her as my girlfriend and even more lucky that she feels that way about me back.
I used to think I knew what love was. I was so silly and so wrong and so so naive.
It isn't about changing yourself to fit into the mold of what you're supposed to be and what you're supposed to want. It's about meeting someone so complimentary that the words that come out of their mouth are the words that come out of yours, whose body fits against yours like a puzzle piece made to be there.
I am astounded and giddy and happy all the time and I refuse to apologize.
She's brought me back to life and I can never thank her enough.
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