I thought about starting this entry a few different ways. In the end, I've decided to fight against all those weird, apologetic instincts and stick to writing in the "no fucks given" manner I'm intending on perpetuating for the remainder of this year and beyond.
My life has changed substantially over the past few months. No, it's no one's business. Facebook and social media in general pushes this weird social narrative that all relationships are public knowledge, for public consumption. I know, personally, I've been caught up in that gossipy bullshit where I feel like I want to know all the details about hook ups and break ups... but, in actuality, it really is a private manner and I'm done trying to have to explain myself and my life to anyone (especially people who just want to know and don't actually care).
This has also pushed me to take a huge step back from social media in general. I'm keeping a presence for writing and to keep up on activism and friends that I don't get to see frequently, but I'm done feeling like I have to explain, compete, be funny, be intelligent... I'm never gonna be anything other than exactly who the fuck I am and I'm pretty ok with that. I'm happy with Melle and, if you're not, hit the unfriend button and move along.
This year is all about fighting back... against our new political environment, against social norms, against my own and other people's expectations of how I should behave and who I should be. I'm ready to perpetuate my tribe, however small that may end up being.
